So we begin..

I thought it would be a great idea to start blogging. I am obsessed with reading about peoples journeys and the adventures that happen. So I begin..

My son was born with hypospadias. We will be having surgery on September 17, 2013. I could not be more nervous the more the day is approaching. damo's dr. (Dr. Murphy at Childrens Mercy) is very confident things will go smoothly throughout the whole procedure. This momma is gonna be a nervous wreck though. I have such a happy baby. He hardly cries. unless he is hungry of course. But i have faith the dr and his team will do a wonderful job with our boy. 

We decided to do the procedure early in his life. The thought that my son would have to sit to pee is just terrible. When boys are little they want to pee on the tree outside, make shapes in the snow with it. they just wanna have fun. I dont want that to be taken away from him. He deserves to be able to do these things. Someday i want him to be able to have his own baby. I want him to be able to function normally. This procedure will take about four hours, and we are hoping it will only be one surgery.. but i guess we will have to see when the time comes.

Being Damo's mom has completely changed my outlook on life. All of my dreams have shifted. its not about me anymore. Its about my baby boy and whats best for him. I want to give him the world, if he asks. I want to provide for him in any way possible. I want to show him that he can be anything he wants to be and his dad and i will love him no matter what. 

As for Damo's dad.. he is wonderful. I see so much more love now that we are a family. Siro loves that boy. He would drop everything he had just to be sure our son was taken care of. He works so hard, and i cant thank him enough for how much he provides for our family. He has been my rock, and always made sure that we have the things we need. The days we open for work, we dont see each other much. He will write on the mirror in the bathroom sweet things, and then i write him back. Its the simple things that mean the most to us these days. We have such an indescribable love toward each other and i can honestly say i am so happy that he is mine. and i am his. we were meant for each other. 

hope everyone has a fabulous day. i didnt expect to write so much!
-Vader's Momma <3